I have been feeling on the edge of a nervous breakdown since last April.
For many reasons of various nature, I found myself, thinking about how big the small things in life can become.
It’s like a phenomenon of expansion, sudden and irreversible.
How many times have we woken up with a sense of immense emptiness?
Feeling inadequate and sad, thinking about the reasons why:
What happened last night, what did bother me yesterday?
No apparent strong reason comes up to our mind…. BUT then a flash, the picture in our mind of a small thing that we could have never suspected, would disturb us this much… A look that made us feel unwelcome, a kind word said with a bad tone, forgetting to call someone who had been promised a phone call, a caress we did not give our loved one because of a stupid discussion or the excuse we told one of our “not very close friends”, when they asked for a little favor… Or that nervous sequence of words said to someone hurting their feelings…
We wake up one day and we start complaining about anything… And anyone!
Well, as the Genius Michael Jackson would sing:
I’m Starting With The Man In
I’m Asking Him To Change
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
Yes I strongly believe that a good start is always checking ourselves out, look in that mirror and see through the excuses, the lack of time, the long hours at work, see through the fear of being terrorized by ourselves, looking at things, small things that we do not notice because we are too busy analyzing other people’s flaws!
When we realize that the change starts from ourselves, that’s when we have started making that change for real!
I am no expert, teacher o psychologist, I write what I know and I certainly know that feeling, I am looking in that mirror now and I see the magnitude of “my” small things to start with… (so much) work in progress!
Please share your vision of the “Magnitude of small things”…